at this point i am very sick of life in general. sometimes i wonder if it would just be better for me to move away. some people would miss me at first but life goes on. I can't exaclty complain about some things i want to complain about due to censorship, but sometimes people need to know. Here is my list of things i am sick of:
1. People just need to fucking get over themselves. That explains itself.
2. Trying. you try and you think things are going to come out the way you want but they just end up being worse. you try to fix things but you should have left them alone in the first place.
3. Planning. With certain things this gets you no where.
4. Caring. I wish i could have an attitude of fuck you i don't give a shit. This would make my life much much easier.
5. Financials. long long story but growing up sucks
I can think of a lot more things but it's not exactly nice of me to put them up here. i hate a group of girls too...fuck those guys. i hope they all go to hell.

este dia no fue tan justo. tengo que hablar en espanol porque solo pocas personas que conzco a mi pagina de pensamientos. es posible que no vaya a la escuela porque la oficina de e-pay son chingadas. pienso que el nuevo se va y deja el anciano que no tiene pasion ni amor. se amo a mi novio muchisimo pero hay dias en que el no me quiere. no quiere toma mi mano ni me besa cuando me ve. entonces, eso es; es la vida que voy a vivir para toda mi vida. espero que cosas sera mejor :(

only 2 more days until my love gets here! other than that, today has been a pretty crabby day..or a day of anger grrrrrrrrr!!!! first work was not that great. no one does stuff i ask them to do so nothing gets done and some of that stuff is important...jerks. after that i went to the rec and kicked my own ass b/c i am so freggin out of shape. i am really sore now but that's a good thing. after that i had 4 missed calls. one was from my mom saying that i owed verizon $473.25. i sent all that stuff back on time. so when i called the stinking lady she said that hadn't receive it yet...so they went and check and sure enough i sent it in plenty of time and they just hadn't taken the time to put it in the computer yet....jerks. so after that i start going through the receipts that chance dropped off and of course they are almost 2 months old...jerk! so now i get to chew him out and ryan said to rip him a new one...so go me for bitching people out. things have gotten a little better since 7:00. hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. well, i am out. i am meeting jayci for some coffee. paz afuera.

this has probably been the best Christmas break since I have been in college. The beginning was kind of boring but not too bad. I went to Michelle's wedding and she was absolutely gorgeous. Jeff had his hair cut and no hat so it looked really nice. Other than that I have been getting stuff ready for Bonfire for next year. Hopefully i'll get all the girls picked and we can start working on stuff. The sooner we get stuff planned out the better! well, that's all i have for now....i am college station bound tomorrowish and I am most definitely excited.

Someone please come save me! I am so bored at home. My day consists of odd chores my parents have me do, a 2 mile walk/jog, some ab exercises and dinner. It finally hit me today that i have no friends left at home and the ones I did have are nothing like what i have become. I have changed so much since high school. all i want is for this stupid break to be over and to be back home doing the college thing....uggghhhhhh.

Yesterday I was pretty excited to be coming home, but eveyone is gone. Mom and Alli went somewhere today and did ask me to come. Matt had to work and Daryl is in Menard. I am already tired of watching tv so i decided to do a bunch of laundry and clean the kitchen. I also have to work on the 501 (c) (3) status paperwork (yuck!) but it has to be done. I miss my Todd and all the girls, and especially all the "howdy ms. head greenpot ma'am" when I walk by FHK. Michelle and Jeff's wedding is next week. I might be calling a few of ya'll on my way to Dallas b/c i have to drive all by myself but at least i will get to see todd and all my friends :) Well, i am out of things to say so I am going to try and post some bonfire pictures.



That's me on a TREE!!!

Now ya'll know where my hips and big butt comes from...we are still wondering about the other...but isn't my mom adorable!!


There are really black people out at Bonfire....haha.